S E V E N

Grief is anger’s twin sister and lately I’ve been spending a lot of time with both of them.  

To be honest, I’ve felt anything but spiritual lately. I’ve been letting my circumstances determine my view of God. I’ve questioned His goodness and doubted His plans.

Today, I realized something. Originally, I took this picture because I was ticked off that my level was still elevated. (We’re looking for it to be under 2). Then I thought deeper as I stared at that number. 

S E V E N

7 weeks have passed since our miscarriage

7 HCG Blood Draws 

7 was this week’s level

Now, I’m not a bible scholar by any stretch of the imagination, but 7 shows up a significant amount in the Bible. And just doing some quick research the first sentence I came across was “7 is the symbol of God’s completed work”. 

I have been asking, or more like begging, demanding and pleading for a sign. That He’s near and that He hears me. That this wasn’t all for nothing. That His plan is good. 

If this isn’t an answer, I don’t know what is. And I almost missed it because I was fixated on the negative.